Well, I don't even know where to begin. God has shown me such mercy and grace tears fill my eyes. I could just close my eyes and die and be happy! He has shown me, "He has opened my eyes to show me that He is right here with me!" I feel Him right now I do see Him ever where! I have struggled to find out what my purpose in this life is, what it is I do best! The reason I'm here........I have found out ( it's so easy) that what I do best is being a passionate person being there for people! What I love the most is talking about my Saviour for hours! If you want to talk about Christ, I would love to just spend all day talking, searching, learning about JESUS! So, I found out that my passion is Jesus! I love being passionate about my Saviour. I defiantly can not to do this on my own! This is Christ wonderful amazing work in me! I have been shy to talk about Christ with others because I can get really passionate and it at times in the past was alot for people! He has shown me that my passion for my Saviour doesn't and cant be hide! He showed my that being passionate is what I am called to be and WHAT I AM! I have wanted to work in the nursing home and go to Haiti, that's what I thought God was calling me, now the door to those ministries are slowly opening! He showed me, I have a heart for people and I'm at my best when I'm serving others.This revelation is big for me because I understand why I want to go to Haiti and why I want to work in the nursing home! I'm sorry I'm flustered! Just pray for me! Praise God for his wonderful work in me cause I would not want to miss this moment of revelation for anything in the world! I'm slowly being formed as Christ wants me! Not what I want but the will of my Father that is why I am still breathing! The DESIRE OF MY HEART IS TO SHARE AND BE PASSIONATE ABOUT THE GOD I SERVE! That is the desire of my heart, that is the TRUE desire of my heart!
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Friday, December 30, 2011
Wednesday, December 28, 2011
I am a Sinner, but I am given Newness of Life
Well, it's been so long since I have written! The Lord has spared me so much these past weeks. I'd have to say, I have made alot of choices that I shouldn't have, like being thoughtful of others instead of doing what I want, being mean and snappy with my words, instead of praying and asking Christ for the peace I lack. I guess trying to run on my own feet..on my own. God has brought me back to himself once again though these act of disobedience.. I have defiantly sowed what I reaped. So last weeks ahead were rough but I don't excuse my sin because I am a sinner. I strive for perfection WITH CHRIST HELP NOT ON MY OWN! In myself I can't never in a million years have a second of perfection...
Anyway. I started this week of not with a happy spirit. I have been waiting on the Lord for some answers to prayers and though I still waiting, I was getting tired of waiting. I was one day in a mood, kinda depressed and sad God sent a small answer to pray. It was not a total answer but it was just the little thing i needed to hear. I was dealing with something, I didn't know why God was putting me though at this stage ( starting college). I was trying to keep my eyes on him and this thing drove me crazy. So I been praying for 2 and half week for him to make it go away, I did not want it anymore all I needed was Christ. He basically showed me that he does have a hand in everything! This minor detail that was now set right, helped me realize that God does have a plan and I get to see it unfold if I let him take control! Though I still don't see the full picture, I understand a little more why he had me wait and how this fits into the whole big picture, though its small! So, here is my small update! Sorry, so short, but so much for me to reflect on in one short note. I need to take a breather before I write more! Blessings to all! I'll keep working on improving the look of the blog as well! Remember waiting on God is the best thing a person can do regarding decisions! Make sure you are close to God ( Reading His Word, Praying, Meditation) if you focus more on the persons of God and understanding the God you serve, will help you discern these answers to prayers and waiting on the Lord!
Anyway. I started this week of not with a happy spirit. I have been waiting on the Lord for some answers to prayers and though I still waiting, I was getting tired of waiting. I was one day in a mood, kinda depressed and sad God sent a small answer to pray. It was not a total answer but it was just the little thing i needed to hear. I was dealing with something, I didn't know why God was putting me though at this stage ( starting college). I was trying to keep my eyes on him and this thing drove me crazy. So I been praying for 2 and half week for him to make it go away, I did not want it anymore all I needed was Christ. He basically showed me that he does have a hand in everything! This minor detail that was now set right, helped me realize that God does have a plan and I get to see it unfold if I let him take control! Though I still don't see the full picture, I understand a little more why he had me wait and how this fits into the whole big picture, though its small! So, here is my small update! Sorry, so short, but so much for me to reflect on in one short note. I need to take a breather before I write more! Blessings to all! I'll keep working on improving the look of the blog as well! Remember waiting on God is the best thing a person can do regarding decisions! Make sure you are close to God ( Reading His Word, Praying, Meditation) if you focus more on the persons of God and understanding the God you serve, will help you discern these answers to prayers and waiting on the Lord!
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Short but Sweet!
Well. this week has flown by! 99% of my finals are done, have one more on Monday! Pray that I do well! The beginning and middle of the week, I thought this week would not go quick enough! WRONG! I encourage you don't wish you time away! Its a bad habit and focuses yr viewpoint on yourself and you view life in the wrong way! See what and how will Christ use you everyday! Have a great Sabbath! " I love the Lord because hears my pleading!" I can't wait to see Andrew Vanwoudenburg tomorrow at church! He is almost done with military! I'm so proud! He looks so different with his uniform on ( I saw a picture of him)! :) Can't wait!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
My Mission
My mission is to be a God's messager. I have always been a person to share alot about what God has done for me. Though out the years of growing closer to God, he has shown methat sharing those hard times, those times of learning furthers His kingdom. When I think of the period of time of Rebellion when God left me to myself, I am ever so ashamed of what I did and am very glad God corrected me but I find that the more I study about God , He can use, in His power, any situation to encourage His believers , chasten them and bring them back to himself, or convict the sinner. So, for me, sharing about how the ups and downs of life shows to the world and other Christians, that God does care about his people! My mission is to show the power and glory of God in my poor sinful self, now redeemed waiting for heaven! My mission is to prove that living a set- apart life is 100% needed! 100% submission is needed and required by God! Once we deny ourselves we can fully enjoy Christ!
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Salvation by Grace though Faith!
Well, I such along story but it's defiantly the time to stop being lazy and write everything I remember. Well, as I mention before I was adopted and I grew up in a Christian family since I can remember.
The day God in His mercy wanted to touch my poor evil heart was when a dear lady in my old church died. When she was ,alive she was so kind and loving just like her Saviour. She treated Elizabeth and me with such love and kindness, I loved her so much like a grandparent. My love for this woman could not be explained in words , its overwhelming! She shared with me and Elizabeth verses and talked alot about the love of Jesus. I was more the person who liked the idea of being saved and thought I need to try to be good! It was totally clear that this lady's heart was not in this world! So, sadly when she died, I felt so sad! I clearly remember trying to get up the courage to tell this kind dear woman how much I loved her ( God hand of mercy on me using her words to help draw me to Him)! When I final knew I would do it, it was to late.. When I hear that she died I cried in secret. I did not cry much, because I knew she was in a far better place.
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so my tears did not last long. So sitting in the pew, with her casket in the front of the church, made me think of how sad it was that I missed telling her how much I loved her and appreciated her, it was then I knew I would never be able to tell her.. because she was in heaven and where did that leave me? So that was the start of God's great work in me, that made me see my sin as it truly was! Thinking back on this as some details come back to memory, makes me so happy to think that one day I'll say how thankful I am for her.. She has been dead for so long but I know she will never leave my mind when I think of my salvation. How much affect she had on me, will stay till I go to see my Saviour and her! So, few years the work of God was defiantly working in me and here I am today! I have learned so much though out these MANY years, since God has saved me from the wrath to come! There was a period in my past, where I was focused on work salvation that I needed to do these things because that is the law of God! I tried to be good on my own so then that lead to living my life the way I wanted! That was probably the roughest time in my life! God was teaching me with my failure and getting in more trouble I cant do it alone.. Now thinking about that time, makes me glad that it was ruff because it is true, trying to live a christian life by works does not work and should back fire on you! So, that is the way beginning of my story! I'll post some more later on my life today and go from there!
The day God in His mercy wanted to touch my poor evil heart was when a dear lady in my old church died. When she was ,alive she was so kind and loving just like her Saviour. She treated Elizabeth and me with such love and kindness, I loved her so much like a grandparent. My love for this woman could not be explained in words , its overwhelming! She shared with me and Elizabeth verses and talked alot about the love of Jesus. I was more the person who liked the idea of being saved and thought I need to try to be good! It was totally clear that this lady's heart was not in this world! So, sadly when she died, I felt so sad! I clearly remember trying to get up the courage to tell this kind dear woman how much I loved her ( God hand of mercy on me using her words to help draw me to Him)! When I final knew I would do it, it was to late.. When I hear that she died I cried in secret. I did not cry much, because I knew she was in a far better place.
so my tears did not last long. So sitting in the pew, with her casket in the front of the church, made me think of how sad it was that I missed telling her how much I loved her and appreciated her, it was then I knew I would never be able to tell her.. because she was in heaven and where did that leave me? So that was the start of God's great work in me, that made me see my sin as it truly was! Thinking back on this as some details come back to memory, makes me so happy to think that one day I'll say how thankful I am for her.. She has been dead for so long but I know she will never leave my mind when I think of my salvation. How much affect she had on me, will stay till I go to see my Saviour and her! So, few years the work of God was defiantly working in me and here I am today! I have learned so much though out these MANY years, since God has saved me from the wrath to come! There was a period in my past, where I was focused on work salvation that I needed to do these things because that is the law of God! I tried to be good on my own so then that lead to living my life the way I wanted! That was probably the roughest time in my life! God was teaching me with my failure and getting in more trouble I cant do it alone.. Now thinking about that time, makes me glad that it was ruff because it is true, trying to live a christian life by works does not work and should back fire on you! So, that is the way beginning of my story! I'll post some more later on my life today and go from there!
Who is Monique Hanley?
Well, to start off this blog I'll share a little about myself. I am now 19 years old. I was adopted when I was 4 and a half. I have two sister : Megan who is 9 and Elizabeth ( who is also adopted ) is 13. My parents are Jennifer and Brian. It's been amazing to grow up in this family. We don't always get along but when we do our bounds are stronger than the strongest rope! I don't wish to be in anyother family.There is not much more that is nessesary to share in this area! :)
A Wonderful Beginning!
Hi, It's such a blessing to have a means of sharing things with people! Its been on my heart to tell people about God and what better way then to share from your personal life and blog it?! So, yes I am a christian! I will give you my whole story later on and I'll also post more when I figure out how this all works! I'm finishing up my first semester, so I'll be on alot more during break! I'm so grateful to the Lord for this means of sharing His goodness in my life! God bless!
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