My heart was with Christ , so I was already long gone.

Here is an essay I wrote about some issue Christ helped me over come and He is now helping me to move on and stop wondering, why and how and to move on and let Him work out the detail in His way and that through the whole situation my heart was with Christ and He was teaching me to moritify my mind and flesh to be more like Christ.

        Well, I think its time to say goodbye </3. Its one of those times where you want to make sense of whats going on or what did. You want to hope that God has a plan and to wait for it but you know your mind and flesh want to to stay but your heart is moving on and tells you to move on and keep going, things will work out in the end but right now waiting for answers is not what to be done now. You know truthfully yr heart wants to go and is ready to move on. To live life with vigor and not let this drag you down. You know if its God's will, he will bring it back into your life. Whats safer way then 2 move on and know God is working things out for your good. Its time to stop wondering and to move on and for now forget but as you move away you know its right and as you go head first  into the unknown. You know its the safest place your heart will ever be. You even embrace it with open arms, though that tug 2 stay is gets strong at times. As you fight with all you have to break away, you,  are on your way again down the narrow road, still learing not to turn back. You relize your heart was never there but was always with Christ, so you were all ready long gone......

Working in us that which is pleasing in His sight through Jesus Christ.

Hey, I have to say, right now I feel so happy and blessed by the grace of God. That the triles of the past 4 weeks were worth so much of the pain and worry. I love Hebrews 13:21b " Equip you in every good thing to do His will, working in us that which is pleasing in His sight through Jesus Christ, to whom be the glory forever and ever. I went through alot of doubts and confusion these past weeks. I truly felt that I was getting to the top of a huge hill ( we go through many) and my body and my heart were failing me, I was scared of trying to fight keep moving on  when I had nothing left but be lead blindly by Christ. To keep Christ as my focus and keep moving to the top.My faith was so weak, (  emotionally) I was scared and did want to move. I was tired of life. I did what Christ wanted me to do in making certian choices but I was afraid of walking on over the hill, to find out His plan and will for how things will turn out based on those choices. I trusted Christ but when I got to the top of the hill, it would most definatly either show that my heart was fullly Christ's or still in this area of my life I'm serving myself and had not learned a thing again. I was so afraid I was failing Christ, my faith was weak and I was emotional sick and tired. I finally got to a point where I felt that either way Christ was teaching me no matter what I did, He is making me more like Him and He will do what he needs to draw me close to Himself. Though the pain of my not surrending myself to Christ in these areas would hurt me so bad, Christ will cover me with his mercy guide me back and help me through the punishment.
        All praise be to God, I made it to the top and though things are still a blurr.. I know that, I have given my heart totally and fully to Christ( only though Christ mercy can I do this). He has helped me though these trials to be more like Him and I with His help was addressing issues and choices  in the right manner and I need not worry or fret because my heart was and still is depending on Him. My reaction to the unknown is faith and I embrace the unknown and I know now that these months were preparing me to have stronger faith and to reasure me that my heart truly does belong to my Saviour. That was the sweetest moment I have felt in so long, a sense of peace and acknowledgement, like having your eyes opened to another amazing aspect of Christ. I have no desire on this earth but Christ. That I embrace the unknown because Christ has a purpose and I must trust him to guide me through it and I'm in the safest place when I let Him guide me though the unknown, instead of trying to figure out everything. God bless you all and pray for me :)

Not to us O Lord, but to Thy name give glory and to Thy name give Praise.

Hi! It's been almost 2 weeks since I have written. I deiced to take a break and rethink how how blog. But today  I would like to share with you about stress and a good thought to remember when your stressed, that really helped me. These past 2 weeks, have been stressful...the start of the new semester and other issues in my life that seem to appear when I thought Christ knew my limit and I feel like I can't handle everything. The fact that Christ doesn't not give us more then we can handle.. has been something that has kept me going and trusting God. Thinking of this always reminds me that Christ does know and care about my problems. He knows I'm stressing and worrying and He truley doesn't give me more than I can bear and that is a fact and He wants me to rely on Him for making it though all my problems. Though it seem like I might fall off the face of the earth or I'll die of stress,and though I feel so absolutely helpless,, this reminder  helps me keep my focus on Christ.. He know how much I can handle and He will help me. It also helps me to look past the big things and look at the small things God has sustained me in. So, my encouragement Christ doesn't give you more than you can handle! ( If your one of His) So once again God can be trusted in everything :)

You Can Have all this World, Just Give me Jesus!

" I love the Lord because he hath heard my voice and my prayers. For he hath inclined his ear unto me, when I did call upon him in my days."
Well, this scripture is soo amazing! The fact that the Lord INCLINES his ear, meaning he is "bending to hear every word we say" giving us his full attention.! WHAT an heart sobbing thing to know
that he cares and he is listening even when we pray the same things over and over again! God loves his Children. That is a fact, he loves us with a love we will never understand. Until we understand
that,( We cant understand how much he loves us) we cant not fully enjoy Christ. The fact that Christ loves us with a love that passeth all understanding is such a huge statement. How we should rest in this fact and have no fears and willing confess when we don't understand the depth of his love and to give us more faith. We will suffer, Christ in his word says that over and over again though out the Bible." How many times does the New testament talk about how we will have trials and hard times and look at the Old Testiment stories of God faithful servants failing but he sustains them. " Commit thy works unto the Lord and they thoughts shall be directed" meaning we will be tempted and fall may at times but if we trust God to DIRECT and REDIRECT ( which means to guide or lead even when we pull the wrong way) we will have victory in Christ. Isaiah 53 talks so much about how Christ suffered because he love us, just reading that bring me to tears," Here in is love that a man lays down his life for a friend" and to think we weren't even his friends to begin with. So, I'm not saying at all take sin lightly, no grieve that you still sin and hate the sin you do with a passion! Christ hates sin and we should! But remind yourself , if your a Christan you are not left alone to fight the sin that rages against you and in you. Christ died for you so have confidence that he will guide and lead you, till its time to take you home to glory.
IN THE MORNING WHEN I RISE< GIVE ME JESUS
WHEN I AM ALONE < GIVE ME JESUS
WHEN I COME TO DIE < GIVE ME JESUS
YOU CAN HAVE ALL THIS WORLD  < GIVE ME JESUS
CAN YOU TRULY SAY THESE WORDS?

Come unto Me all Ye who are Weary and heavy laden and I will Give you Rest

Hi! I have 2 more weeks of break! I though it would be most appropriate to not only share the good times but as well the hard times. I want this to be used for Christ glory and just emphasizing the good, is not how the Bible talks about the Christian life! I don't want any of you who read my blog thing " ohh, I wish I had it that easy!" Let, me tell you, this " easiness" did not just form over night and to be honest I'm still struggling so much ( we will struggle so much till we die and meet our Saviour) ! It took years, and MANY hard times battling my sin... as I kept failing,God showed me, I can't do thing to get better with God! Christian life is not about doing things for God, its living a life submitting to Christ! RELYING on HIM to battle sin, not waiting for that feeling on your own to battle sin.. because it will never come! Thats why understanding justification by Grace though Faith is important! That statement in it self shows us it not ANYTHING we can do! So why Christian trust themselves to please God is mainly boils down to, they think they need to repay, NOOOOO! Then is Christ death in vain? GOD FORBID! We are looking at our selves instead looking at the Cross! When you walk down a path you normally look ahead head right? Do you look at your feet continually ? No of course not you WILL fall! So, keep your eyes on the Cross don't look at your sinful self  though pardoned to get that spiritual feeling.... Look ahead to Christ, it is only Him that can give you the true desires of your heart! If your eyes are on Christ, you are in the safest place you could ever be, though this world rage against you! I strongly encourage those wanting to be more "spiritual" there is NOTHING you can do to be more spiritual! The phrase "spirit in you" doesnt me" yourself in you" it means Christ living in you! He can not live in you if you refuse to let Him take full control! I mean 100 %! Laying your life at his feet! So, I pray, that you heed this advice it will save alot of doubts and confusion and its not my wisdom that says this THE BIBLE CLEARY STATES ALL THAT I HAVE SPOKEN OF, Christ is using me and my person experince to prove this is true! I'm just an example of these scriptures, and I'm still struggling I havent " Arrived" yet you could say.. no one will till heaven! So God bless, my He truely be your all in all! " ~ I run the race with pactience~"