Restless

So, want to know how I am feeling as of today?
Between trying to find another job, looking into colleges, looking at majors, I am feeling frustrated.
I feel I have an in general idea of what I would like to do and what I need to do in the  present to help but I do not have the detailed blue prints and I am restless. I am at a point where I am ready to fly but there is a hump and I cant tell what it is or how to get over it
 This poem explains how I feel.....
Restless- By Me
Here I sit, same place, same smell
I am itching to move
I dream big but still standing in the same place
Watching people go by while I still stand in the same spot ...
Wanting to fly away but my feet are shuffling on the ground
My mask is hiding my restlessness
Wait on the Lord yes I will but inside a fire is stirring
and I am not sure I can keep this mask on forever
People say don't stay in the past or future
So, I fight to stay in the present and fight my demons
To dream big, not to doubt, to work hard no matter what others are saying
Don't let words or people success trip me up to question my path
So, here I sit, same place, smell, itching to move
I keep still and do my thing, waiting for my time

I am quite faithless and believe that I am going to be stuck paying student loans for another 2 years like I have been and my future looks bleak. I feel that I'm just going through life in a fog, my mind and heart elsewhere....
I heard good advice which is in my poem which is " Don't stay in the past or the future, it can and will mess you up" Not that it is bad but they said that the present is just important and more valid.
The Bible does say do not worry about the next day for that day will take care of itself,
I feel I do the floating though the present too much, I am so out of  tune with the blessings and the work I am doing right now. I am blessed to be working for the most real family ever and I am starting to get back on my feet and the Lord has blessed me with a deeper sense of Him but I am dreaming and reflecting too much in the future and the past that I am missing the now and blessings of air, birds, and sunshine....
Wow, think I just taught myself a lesson, see when we take the time to see how faithless we are and search for it we can see our habits of faithlessness and attack it.
Blessings and Keep the Faith
Monique