All- Knowing God

Hey, I hope you are all well and growing spritually in the Lord. I just wanted to share a small thing and here is the quote below:

    We worry often about the future and stress and fret, like we don't have an all- knowing God and Saviour. We forget the promises of God, that He promises us, " I will never leave you or forsake you". You probably hear that quote or line all the time, and might roll your eyes and say " I KNOW that." but do you? If we knew that we would not worry like we do about our future in such a way in that we act like there is no God on the throne and we need to fend for ourselves. It is defiantly easier said then done.
                Sometimes when we are fretting about our future and such ,it shows that we are depending on ourselves to have a bright future or just make things work out for ourselves for the future. We need to be remembering that our lives our hide in Christ, to actually rest in the promise " I will never leave you or forsake you" ,means we know that our lives are hide in Christ and He will not forsake His people. In Him we have eternal life, we now have hope in the good and bad because we are redeemed. That all things work together for good for them that love God and are called according to his purpose. We can believe that because God SAID it. He does not break or forget his promises as the Psalms state.
         So, let us rejoice in the unknown future because as Christians, we are in the hands of the ALL-KNOWING God. How safe and secure is our lives in His hands? Let us pray to have hearts that flee to Him and cherish what He has promised.
In Christ,
Monique

Back From the Dead and I Got New plans :)

      Hello, I am back from the dead. I am finding a new way to run this blog and I have come to the idea to help shorten the blog by sharing inspiring verses and quotes and sermons I have heard. I would love to post like I did before but it is not relistic or possible anymore. So, I will be posting at least 4 times a week some quote or verse that spoke to me!
       My college and Career is going over 1 Peter and there is so much about who God is so I defiantly am glad to share there.

Today is my 20th Birthday and I have something to share!

                I just wanted to write and show you how blessed I have been by an ever faithful God. Today is my 20^th birthday.  Today actually marks a pretty huge day for me.  Today marks the day that I am an adult. My career choice and what I know where Christ is leading to me demands me to take on full time job as a CNA and be in the adult world now. Looking back in the past and all I have been through it’s been so clear, that God was preparing me for this step, he has given me the advice I need to hear and the “ experience”.

                My 19^th year  of age was probably the hardest year I have ever faced. I use to blame it on how things went and that was my portion in life and God was testing. When I now know the events and the trials that went on… were there to help prepare me for this big step into the adult work and claiming adult things, not just to test me. That God has higher plan then the right now! I In my 19 year learning experience, I handled thing very immaturely at times ( a lot of times). I have great parent who expect the best of me and want the best of me, my parents dealt  a lot with the immature me and pressed on expecting the best for me and of me cuz they knew I was able, I wasn’t doing that part and owning up. So they kept on me and labored like great parent are supposed to.

                I had a lot of learning to do last year and looking back at it….. I overcame it with Christ help. Not that everything today is answer perfectly but everywhere I see how God worked by matching this small thing with that etc. He has given me and reminded me that waiting on the Lord is the most important thing but not just waiting but as we are waiting for God, to grow more in Him, not to sit back and wait for and answer but to follow hard after God.  This is one truth I have kept close to my heart, because I listen to sermons that pointed this out over and over again during my 19^th year! God works in GREAT ways! That is the main thing I am taking with me as I struggle and make my way into this world.

                I have gotten a lot of input on my decision on taking full time as a Certified Nursing Assistant and mostly possible not go back to college.  I have defiantly let what other people say, affect my decisions. My dad has been the most helpful in this big decision! He said something that I will always keep close to my heart! He said (paraphrasing)”” that if you believe this is what God wants you to do then do it with all you have. I don’t want you to do anything that God doesn’t call you to do! If he has called you to serve then serve and follow God with all your might! Don’t let anyone lead you away from what God has called you to do and be.””” I keep that close to me, because it’s so true and reminded me of God faithfulness to those who are faithful to him!

                My dear mother was a huge help for me, (in the physical sense) realizing what I needed to Do: to get to where I want to be. She kept telling me you can pray to God and trust him (the first thing of course not to less the value) but you have to GO AND DO IT ( see again the following hard after God)! I was praying and waiting and not DOING! One day she said to me: (Paraphrasing).”” Monique, you have decided  go  right into the work field so that means you are now entering into the adult world and need to do adult things and act like such. You have a job and bills and much more than people in your high school class because they are not choosing the path that you are. They are in school and don’t have steady job and will work later. Stop comparing yourself to them and do what you need to do, and act like an adult, which you are allowed to because that is the road you have chosen.””” That in itself just made me realize that is it in my power to do, to go and trust God. I can say I trust Him but if I don’t go and do then what faith is that? I need to throw myself into the work I believe he has called me into.

                In my conclusion, I want you to learn from my mistakes and follow HARD after Christ like it says in the Psalm 63! You defiantly can pray and wait on God but even while you wait, follow hard after God!   God can’t use you unless your willing to follow no matter what!

                This is what I have learned and I feel so prepared and safe in God and can go and do, what He is calling me to!

The reality is that even if you are following the ""wrong"" path ( I use that very lose because God will have you where He wants you to be at the time, so it's not nesesarrly wrong path, if you are a Child of the King) you are on, God will direct no matter what! Think of all the missionaries that thought God was calling them here and they worked hard where they thought God wanted them to be and things fell through and didn’t work out and God called them elsewhere and guess what they did… They were confused at first but the followed hard and strong anyway on the new path God put them on!  Even Paul in the New Testament is a great example to!  Missionaries I was thinking of were George Muller and Amy Carmichael! So, don’t be afraid of choosing the wrong path, God will direct your path if you trust in Him with your WHOLE heart, no matter where He puts you!
 

Part 1- Sin and Continual Prayer

Hi! I am excited to write so I am going to jump in, but one thing is that I am going to do this in parts. I will explain to you what God has taught me though some of my trials.
        So, Part one is about dealing with sin and God; one on one. Sometime we think," I need to to hear a good sermon to realise my sin".  Maybe even we might think God will have something bad happen and then I will know what sins to get ride of. Whatever the case may be we need to understand that the Bible COMMANDS us to search out and put to death our sins. My favorite verses to use and think about is James 4:8 and Matthew 6:13.
                James 4:8- Draw night to God and he will draw nigh to you, CLEANSE your hands, ye sinners: and purify your hearts ye double minded
            Matthew 6:13- Watch and pray, that ye enter not in to temptation:the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak

   I think this applys well. James tells us that we need to cleanse our and purify. Verse 7 before that talks about how we must submit to God resist the devil and he will flee from us. We are not a perfect people yet, we as christian need to daily cleanse and purify AND draw near to God. Everyday we need to be in full pursuit of dying to sin and self. We defiantly have times where God is blessing us and such. Still we need to draw night to God, so He can show us the things HE hates and hate them. So He can show us the things He loves and loves them. Don't be slack with your soul anytime. God says in Matthew we need to watch and pray to NOT to enter into temptation... and temptation is the act before we sin. Jesus was tempted but He didn't fall of course because He is God, but Christ is a GREAT example of watching and PRAYING. So many time it mentions Jesus going to a place to pray and be there for hours. He was able to face the Satan because He watched: knew all scriptures to us against Satan and He Prayed: He was lead by the Spirit meaning He was in communion with the Spirit. That is the example He set and is showing us we need to be in continually prayer agains sin. Some people say " Oh how long should I pray and when?"  God says watch and pray, I can't give you an answer to you but I can leave you with a thought. The most important thing in this world, the one thing that really matters in this world is your soul. God commands us to live lives separate from the world, meaning that our main focus is GOD and loving our neighbor and our souls and renewing our minds like Christ as He has commanded; dying to self because we as christian are being formed like Christ. Do what is necessary to keep close to our Dear and Precious Saviour ( that might be giving up a few things to spend more time in prayer) Of course we do not want to go into extremes but let watch and pray against temptation.
             It says at the later end of Matthew the spirit is INDEED ( meaning " of course" or "  it defiantly is" willing but the flesh is weak. We may have good intentions for doing this and that for God but let us watch and PRAY. Let us kneel before our Maker that He may show us our sin and that we can PLUCK it out! We need to continue in prayer. I believe our flesh is weak part applys alot to prayer. We may start out well praying for a week but then we die away and just LET it fail . A Preacher named Paul Washer put it so well ( paraphrasing here) He said, ""that it is easy to start in prayer but to continue in prayer is another thing. We need not to stop praying when we feel defeated at prayers, we need to wrestle and fight to continue in prayer. We are to easy to give up, but God commands us to pray with out ceasing even when it feel we are cold against God."""  Pray with out ceasing is not just continually praying for someone but when we don't feel like praying to wrestle with ourselves and tell God we want to pray but can't. God wants to see his Children call out to Him in their weak state, we don't need to come to God with everything going right with us or even when we are struggling some things.  Come to God with the deepest darkest things in your heart.. ROOT out that evil sin and confess it to God. Well, I will leave you with this verse to part one....  (  Part two will be up next week )!

                Ecclesiastes 12:13-Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: FEAR GOD AND KEEP HIS COMMANDMENTS, FOR THIS IS THE WH0LE DUTY OF MAN.
May God Bless you,
Monique
       

Where Your Teasure is There will your heart be also!

Hi! I can't believe I have not written since April!!!!!!!!!! :(
I can not explain to you how much I miss writing. :( I was going to force myself to keep writing on my blog by doing a study on devotions, did not have time to study the topics. That is how crazy my life has been.
So, God recently has been teaching me contentment. I struggle with this alot. Alot of my friends college experiences have sounded so much fun! A few have studied abroad. Alot of them have made new amazing great friends and joined fun clubs. Studies are hard but they had great college life ( I am sooooo glad for them and continue to wish them well)
I will be honest, my college experience has been far from that. I have not made any friends. I have no money to travel abroad. My financial state has been hard because my dear loving parents do as much as they can but alsa I have to make my own way. I tried joining a few Christian clubs and they all where not what I was expecting.
Looking back at my freshman year, I see 100% clear why God had my situation the way it was, to grow me and to teach me. He did not have me make friends because I needed to be there for my family and find a few friend to be close with ( friends meant to much to me). I had financial issues and stress to TEACH ME to learn how to mange stuff  and not put it all on my dear parents ( beside the fact they couldn't, taught me to finical plan which is so important) and an every important one to trust God he will ALWAYS provide and care me through.
Basically Freshman year, was TIME TO GROW UP year and rather quick. It was time for me to own up and be an adult. Faster than most people, yes, but the reason is that establishing and acknowledging these bad habits NOW, to save me for sitting in my own discontentment. Learning these lessons have taught me to be a better help to my family ( with my darling mother sick :(( ) and helped my care free ways I had in High school. Helped me see life is not about me and what I want but what I can do for others and Christ.
SO, is there a reason to be discontent? NEVER! I was wrong and seeing my attitude ashames me. SO I encourage you. NO MATTER where you are or what you have, USE it for GOD! I don't need the " best college experience" to be happy or grow. If that is your lot, use it for Christ and I am so glad for you. Do not forget God's blessings! So, give those blessings back to the Lord and praise His holy Name!
- Monique

PRAYER: Dear Heavenly Father,
                  Thank you for where you have put me in my life. Help me to serve and use the blessings in my life for your honor and Glory. Help me to remember that I should be seeking the Kingdom of God and all these things will be added unto me... the blessings of seeking and then finding You and your greatness! Open the eyes of my heart! I want to see You!
AMEN
VERSE TO TAKE WITH YOU:  MATTHEW 6:19-21-“Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal; ²⁰ but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. ²¹ For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Hello! I am back and we are on a roll!

Hello! I hope you had a good day! I would like to say I am now back to being 100x more dedicated to doing this small work for the Lord. The semster is almost over and during this semster it has been hard. I was going through some hard spiritual battle with sin in my life, that it would have been wrong for me to be posting. I know I am not perfect and I said I won't post only the good but there are times were we should be real with ourselves and step back and address major sin in our lives. It good to be open to addressing major sins that need to delt with..sins that are between you and God. Sins that need time to draw back from other attivites to seek the Lord and destroy our old man. So, I encourage you to examine your life. Those private sins that only God will ever know, bring them to the Lord. Spend a season ( take time away from other ativities you do) reading and mediating on His word and praying with a heartfelt prayer to remove this major sin. Instead of doing other things, spend time fighting against this sin by praying and reading the Word.
                           I have to say mediation on the Word of God is VERY VERY important for spiritual growth. I got a link from a blog called " 365 Devotions for Christian Unmarried Women" and it is about " Studying God's Word. I have to admit, I am so lacking in this area, I think I could be profiting so much more than I am, if I take the time to understand and get help on how to truly " Study" God's Word. The blog also mentioned Memorizing Scripture as a very important part as well.
                     So, I have decided to put another tab up and I will be going through this study. Together we will be studying how to study God's Word and Memorizing God Word. I will post the link and such as well. I will try to have it set up on Saturday and start it Monday! God bless! May God be in your thoughts this weekend!
                  
    
       

Preach the Gospel to Every Creature

My apologies for my slowness in writing. Today I would like to talk and consider the topic of Evanglism. As I mentioned in one of my past blogs that I would love to go to Haiti next summer. Christ has given me the heart to go on a mission trip, Lord willing. I want to go over there and help and share the gospel, to show those needy people, there can be joy and comfort though suffering, though Christ Jesus our Lord.
     I then relized that I just don't need to wait for a mission trip or any other organiziation to start Evanglising. I can share the gospel in my everyday contacts. How improtant it is to reach those we are in contact with everyday as well as those off in other countries.
    I feel that mission trips are becoming things to " do", like the motiviation behind it is part selfish. We should be careful not to fall into a place where we see how many mission trips we can go on or let our pride get in the way of God using it to glorify Him fully. I know many people have had life changing experinece and it so encouraging to hear that and see people wanting to do missions. We should want to do it because of Christ and because it is something we prayed about and feel He is calling us to do.
  I heard of a story of a girl who signed up for a missions trip and when she was about to leave to go to the country ,she didnt want to go. I mean it is diffrent going into another country but let us look deep and our hearts and make sure we have a heart for missions because of Christ. To make sure we don't do it because everyone else is doing it. How can you minsiter to others fully when you moitives are of  yourself? How can you show the love of other like we are commanded when you do it for selfgain and not fully to their benefit?.
I say this not to point fingers or anything, I want to remind you to make sure God uses you FULLY.  To make sure your not just going through the motions, to let youself  be used fully by God for HIS glory!

Great is Thy Faithfulness

I would like to share, that this week has brought many rough edges. I am not going into detail but there were time I wanted to be and do things but I looked in myself and found a person who was selfish, mean and had a bad attitude. I hated what I was and that I couldn't be. I kept trying to have a better attitude about life and etc but continually I kept doing wrong. Christ through the Word and pray made me realize once again. I need Christ every second of my life. I need to confess that I am sinful, prideful and a  shame to the cross of Christ. To seek Christ even in the night, to search and examine myself.
                           I found that I need to hate the sin and that hating my sin is right. I should not be like " OH, I sinned, Christ forgives. I must grief and be torn at my sin I still commit. I find every time I learn more about Christ , I HATE myself and can't what for God works in me, will be finalized!
That He is with me and knows that I'm falling down and hurting at the times when I sin. He does forgive but he wants to hear our confession.
  So, I want to encourage you that God is forever faithful in hearing our confessions and forgiving! So come to Him with everything even the bad!
                      

Open the Eyes of my Heart Lord. I want to See You

 "Open the eyes of my Heart Lord, I want to see you. See you high and lifted up and shining in the light of your glory. Lord pour out your power and love, as we sing Holy, Holy, Holy."
                     My favorite line for this song is the first sentence. Open the eyes of my heart Lord, I want to see you. This is defiantly not  scripture verse but the words are striking and beautiful. Is this your longing? " Open the eyes of my heart because I want to see you." When I think of seeing Christ, I get so excited and happy because one day we will be able to see Christs full glory and thinking about that is overwhelming! He shows us some of his glory now here on earth and its spectacular! I am so undeserving.
                I think this line( that I love), helps remind me that Christ is Holy. My desire everyday is and should be to die to sin and self. I can only see Christ, if he is working in my life and opening my eyes. I need faith to believe and continue to believe He will open the eyes of my heart, to be more like Him. That we walk by faith and not by sight!
     I encourage you to pray these words, with a sincere heart. Does your heart burn with a passion for this. Do you want Christ to open the eyes of our hearts? To give you more faith to see that He is our provider and strength and we can 100 % rely on him  and have no fears! God bless! God is an amazing provider and truly cares for us, its astounding!

Yea, the Deep Things of God

1 Corinthians 2:10-
But God hath revealed them unto us by His Spirit. For the Spirit searcheth all things, yea, the deep things of God.
    This verse reminded me of how thankful I should be for the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is the one who opens our eyes to the deep things of God. I stress this alot but it a common saying  I see and here everywhere around me. People saying " What can you do to get closer to Christ" , " If you do A.B and C, your walk with Christ will be better." 
         This view of our Christan walk is dangerous. If we start looking for things to DO, to have a better walk with Christ, we are already deceiving ourselves. We are inclined to want to do bad. The old man still is in us. Making this resolutions are not bad in themselves and we defiantly should be doing self examination and seeing where we need to do better and ask forgiveness.
         I can say that if people just say I'm going to read my Bible and pray more, they have started off in a good direction but there is more than just DOING things. People need to acknowledge and accept that they can't do it alone. They need to understand that just like salvation they can't save themselves as well as they can't just start doing good with out Christ. We need to say and acknowledge we can only do good because of Christ.Paul says the good he wants to do he doesn't. This is coming from an amazing Christan example. He recognises that he has  the desire to do good but he doesn't do it. Meaning that in himself trying to be good and setting resolutions are not enough but it goes more beyond himself to Christ. It shows man weakness and desperate dependence on Christ, to do the good we would do but don't.
     I am not saying we shouldn't look at ourselves for sins and have a heart to correct them but also we shouldn't just sit back and let God " do all the work", the Bible is clear on that is not whats to be done. Even with seeing sin in our lives, it's not us acknowledging our sin but Christ showing us where we are wrong. So we are to acknowledge and submit to God's Great and Mighty hand in your lives. To search the Scripture and fellowship and understand more the God we serve
      God has a hand in a Christians life, every part. We are subjected to His mercy. It's in His mercy we want to do good. It's in His mercy He lets us see where we are erring and want to change. It's in His mercy we can admit we do want to be good but don't and pray for the strength to be more like Christ. Not depending on ourselves to form ourselves like Christ.
           If we are searching for the deep things of God. We HAVE to look outside of ourselves. We need to admit we are still doing wrong and in ourselves we are lost. We need Christs hand in every part of our lives. He gives us the Holy Spirit, to convict and encourage.
     I encourage you to yes search for sin and pray that God also opens your eyes to sin you don't see. To pray that God will give you a heart to want to good, because when we sin,  we are saying we love to do bad and don't care for the things of God. Though we are saved, God doesn't not leave us alone, to fight our old man ourselves, so see this as God mercy and grace and blessing, helping you die to yourself everyday. We need to remember we don't pay God back by trying living a Christian life....I think that is the hidden motive to some Christians.. they need root out this unbelief .. remember that Christ paid it all. He doesn't need our pathetic trys, to pay back  such a WONERFUL AND GREAT thing He has done for His people you His Beloved. Now is the time to work on getting to know the God we are going to be serving the rest of eternity and submitting ourselves to His control and rely on Him for our daily for Him changing  us in His image. God bless!

Looking unto Jesus the Author and Finisher of our Faith

Well, I want to encourage you! To look unto Jesus the Author and Finisher of our Faith. I forget this so much.. I worry about my future and school and work and finding that perfect balance. I keep forgetting that Jesus is the Author and Finisher of our Faith! He knows what He is doing.. I need not worry or fret. I can trust Him and how it's in our weakest states we see Him better. I feel Christ keeps telling me and showing me things but how quickly I forgot.... I am ashamed of myself. I am so glad He doesn't give up on me, I would be lost with out His mercy! How there are all alot of time I have no faith.. I should come to Jesus and ask Him to cure my unbelief.. To much I'm like " oh I need to change my mind set" which is true but obviously it doesn't change because I can't want to do better on my own, again I rely on myself to be what I can't be. Its such a great thing we Can look to Christ.and He continues to fashion us like unto Himself. May we hold this truth close to our hearts! May we study His Word which is filled with so many promises for His Children. May we pray with grief and sorrow in our hearts for the sin we commit against Him with our unbelief. May we be willing to sacrifice whatever need be, to know Him better! May nothing stand in the way of wonderful fellowship with our Dear Precious Saviour. The thought of heaven and Jesus makes me so happy! I have been so fascinated with death ( which is creepy to some). I know in my heart I have no fear for it and the mystery of the soul leaving the body.. For me makes me joyful.. that someday I will be with Jesus and be happy forever serving Him... Why would I want to stay here? The Sting of Death is the law but I have no fear of the law because of Christ and His death on the cross. Nothing can separate me from the love of God not death not troubles ! So I embrace death because it will bring me to my Saviour! God bless!

We are more than Conquers THROUGH Him who loved us

Romans 8:35.37
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? ....No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.
           These words make my heart joyful. Then at the same time, its rips me to my core. This is such a blessing to hear and know and read. How many of you believe this with your whole hearts? I stuggle with this everyday. Life for me is daily battle.. I have to balance work, school, friends and family. I have not arrived at a good balance with all of them. The constant struggle to make the right choices and to keep moving through everyday that passes faster each and everyday is a great struggle for me. I get weary and its feels like the whole world is on my shoulder ( plus other issues with my personal self I have to deal with). I tend to keep moving but my hope is low, my spirits are weak and I want to enjoy everyday but its a battle. I look to the sky sometimes looking for answers and questioning what I believe and who I am and where I am ment to be... Im walking through life in the same pattern and it feels everyday gets harder.. though I am doing almost the same thing.... I burneds me that I am so worried and struggling so much, I question my faith in God all the time.. I know my faith is weak and I'm learning to trust God more... but though I feel so down... a surpising thing is that I would not want to be anywhere else. I think of " ohh if I went away to college" or " if I had a diffrent job" and when I sit down and think about .. where I am right now I don't want to BE anywhere else.
  The verse above says " Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword, sepeerate us from Christ? NO, they  wont.... Though my life seem like at times endless days of trouble and harship etc. I know that this is were I am ment to be. That through all of this... I always " see" Christ. At the end of each day.. I know I can say this day was hard.. but Jesus has helped me through and showed His mercy and love to me... I also think.. I can deal with all this " stuff". We are more then conquores, THROUGH CHRIST! I can say though things are ruff.. I'll be ok cause Jesus love is with me!

Tell me, lest I forgot who I am to You.

Hi! I have to say this past week, has been easier. I am so glad God has been helping me and reminding me what matters most in life. I learning how to balance God, life, and family. Its's amazing to see how far I've come. I'm stilling learning but the learning has been such a blessing. I sometimes forget, how much God does want to be apart of my life and He cares about each thing I do. I can live life and I know He care about me and I am His child.
 My big excitement to share, is that in small way ,I might be off on a missions trip to Haiti. I been praying and very uncertian how God would have this work out in my life. So far I have heard things about mission trips to Haiti in the next year! I wasnt sure how I was going to go about, finding mission trips and learning about Haiti, but God in his mercy has provide a way for me Lord willing to go. So, Please pray for me as I move slowly forward in my desire to go to Haiti! My mother thought I would move there.... but I'm not sure about that right now...:)
 My encouragement to you today, is don't forget Christ died for you because He loved you. You a poor worthless sinner. That we should always remember and understand we can never understand how Christ could love us like that and its the great thought to ponder because what love is stronger than that?

My heart was with Christ , so I was already long gone.

Here is an essay I wrote about some issue Christ helped me over come and He is now helping me to move on and stop wondering, why and how and to move on and let Him work out the detail in His way and that through the whole situation my heart was with Christ and He was teaching me to moritify my mind and flesh to be more like Christ.

        Well, I think its time to say goodbye </3. Its one of those times where you want to make sense of whats going on or what did. You want to hope that God has a plan and to wait for it but you know your mind and flesh want to to stay but your heart is moving on and tells you to move on and keep going, things will work out in the end but right now waiting for answers is not what to be done now. You know truthfully yr heart wants to go and is ready to move on. To live life with vigor and not let this drag you down. You know if its God's will, he will bring it back into your life. Whats safer way then 2 move on and know God is working things out for your good. Its time to stop wondering and to move on and for now forget but as you move away you know its right and as you go head first  into the unknown. You know its the safest place your heart will ever be. You even embrace it with open arms, though that tug 2 stay is gets strong at times. As you fight with all you have to break away, you,  are on your way again down the narrow road, still learing not to turn back. You relize your heart was never there but was always with Christ, so you were all ready long gone......

Working in us that which is pleasing in His sight through Jesus Christ.

Hey, I have to say, right now I feel so happy and blessed by the grace of God. That the triles of the past 4 weeks were worth so much of the pain and worry. I love Hebrews 13:21b " Equip you in every good thing to do His will, working in us that which is pleasing in His sight through Jesus Christ, to whom be the glory forever and ever. I went through alot of doubts and confusion these past weeks. I truly felt that I was getting to the top of a huge hill ( we go through many) and my body and my heart were failing me, I was scared of trying to fight keep moving on  when I had nothing left but be lead blindly by Christ. To keep Christ as my focus and keep moving to the top.My faith was so weak, (  emotionally) I was scared and did want to move. I was tired of life. I did what Christ wanted me to do in making certian choices but I was afraid of walking on over the hill, to find out His plan and will for how things will turn out based on those choices. I trusted Christ but when I got to the top of the hill, it would most definatly either show that my heart was fullly Christ's or still in this area of my life I'm serving myself and had not learned a thing again. I was so afraid I was failing Christ, my faith was weak and I was emotional sick and tired. I finally got to a point where I felt that either way Christ was teaching me no matter what I did, He is making me more like Him and He will do what he needs to draw me close to Himself. Though the pain of my not surrending myself to Christ in these areas would hurt me so bad, Christ will cover me with his mercy guide me back and help me through the punishment.
        All praise be to God, I made it to the top and though things are still a blurr.. I know that, I have given my heart totally and fully to Christ( only though Christ mercy can I do this). He has helped me though these trials to be more like Him and I with His help was addressing issues and choices  in the right manner and I need not worry or fret because my heart was and still is depending on Him. My reaction to the unknown is faith and I embrace the unknown and I know now that these months were preparing me to have stronger faith and to reasure me that my heart truly does belong to my Saviour. That was the sweetest moment I have felt in so long, a sense of peace and acknowledgement, like having your eyes opened to another amazing aspect of Christ. I have no desire on this earth but Christ. That I embrace the unknown because Christ has a purpose and I must trust him to guide me through it and I'm in the safest place when I let Him guide me though the unknown, instead of trying to figure out everything. God bless you all and pray for me :)

Not to us O Lord, but to Thy name give glory and to Thy name give Praise.

Hi! It's been almost 2 weeks since I have written. I deiced to take a break and rethink how how blog. But today  I would like to share with you about stress and a good thought to remember when your stressed, that really helped me. These past 2 weeks, have been stressful...the start of the new semester and other issues in my life that seem to appear when I thought Christ knew my limit and I feel like I can't handle everything. The fact that Christ doesn't not give us more then we can handle.. has been something that has kept me going and trusting God. Thinking of this always reminds me that Christ does know and care about my problems. He knows I'm stressing and worrying and He truley doesn't give me more than I can bear and that is a fact and He wants me to rely on Him for making it though all my problems. Though it seem like I might fall off the face of the earth or I'll die of stress,and though I feel so absolutely helpless,, this reminder  helps me keep my focus on Christ.. He know how much I can handle and He will help me. It also helps me to look past the big things and look at the small things God has sustained me in. So, my encouragement Christ doesn't give you more than you can handle! ( If your one of His) So once again God can be trusted in everything :)

You Can Have all this World, Just Give me Jesus!

" I love the Lord because he hath heard my voice and my prayers. For he hath inclined his ear unto me, when I did call upon him in my days."
Well, this scripture is soo amazing! The fact that the Lord INCLINES his ear, meaning he is "bending to hear every word we say" giving us his full attention.! WHAT an heart sobbing thing to know
that he cares and he is listening even when we pray the same things over and over again! God loves his Children. That is a fact, he loves us with a love we will never understand. Until we understand
that,( We cant understand how much he loves us) we cant not fully enjoy Christ. The fact that Christ loves us with a love that passeth all understanding is such a huge statement. How we should rest in this fact and have no fears and willing confess when we don't understand the depth of his love and to give us more faith. We will suffer, Christ in his word says that over and over again though out the Bible." How many times does the New testament talk about how we will have trials and hard times and look at the Old Testiment stories of God faithful servants failing but he sustains them. " Commit thy works unto the Lord and they thoughts shall be directed" meaning we will be tempted and fall may at times but if we trust God to DIRECT and REDIRECT ( which means to guide or lead even when we pull the wrong way) we will have victory in Christ. Isaiah 53 talks so much about how Christ suffered because he love us, just reading that bring me to tears," Here in is love that a man lays down his life for a friend" and to think we weren't even his friends to begin with. So, I'm not saying at all take sin lightly, no grieve that you still sin and hate the sin you do with a passion! Christ hates sin and we should! But remind yourself , if your a Christan you are not left alone to fight the sin that rages against you and in you. Christ died for you so have confidence that he will guide and lead you, till its time to take you home to glory.
IN THE MORNING WHEN I RISE< GIVE ME JESUS
WHEN I AM ALONE < GIVE ME JESUS
WHEN I COME TO DIE < GIVE ME JESUS
YOU CAN HAVE ALL THIS WORLD  < GIVE ME JESUS
CAN YOU TRULY SAY THESE WORDS?

Come unto Me all Ye who are Weary and heavy laden and I will Give you Rest

Hi! I have 2 more weeks of break! I though it would be most appropriate to not only share the good times but as well the hard times. I want this to be used for Christ glory and just emphasizing the good, is not how the Bible talks about the Christian life! I don't want any of you who read my blog thing " ohh, I wish I had it that easy!" Let, me tell you, this " easiness" did not just form over night and to be honest I'm still struggling so much ( we will struggle so much till we die and meet our Saviour) ! It took years, and MANY hard times battling my sin... as I kept failing,God showed me, I can't do thing to get better with God! Christian life is not about doing things for God, its living a life submitting to Christ! RELYING on HIM to battle sin, not waiting for that feeling on your own to battle sin.. because it will never come! Thats why understanding justification by Grace though Faith is important! That statement in it self shows us it not ANYTHING we can do! So why Christian trust themselves to please God is mainly boils down to, they think they need to repay, NOOOOO! Then is Christ death in vain? GOD FORBID! We are looking at our selves instead looking at the Cross! When you walk down a path you normally look ahead head right? Do you look at your feet continually ? No of course not you WILL fall! So, keep your eyes on the Cross don't look at your sinful self  though pardoned to get that spiritual feeling.... Look ahead to Christ, it is only Him that can give you the true desires of your heart! If your eyes are on Christ, you are in the safest place you could ever be, though this world rage against you! I strongly encourage those wanting to be more "spiritual" there is NOTHING you can do to be more spiritual! The phrase "spirit in you" doesnt me" yourself in you" it means Christ living in you! He can not live in you if you refuse to let Him take full control! I mean 100 %! Laying your life at his feet! So, I pray, that you heed this advice it will save alot of doubts and confusion and its not my wisdom that says this THE BIBLE CLEARY STATES ALL THAT I HAVE SPOKEN OF, Christ is using me and my person experince to prove this is true! I'm just an example of these scriptures, and I'm still struggling I havent " Arrived" yet you could say.. no one will till heaven! So God bless, my He truely be your all in all! " ~ I run the race with pactience~"